Well, I'm back on here again, I know it has been a good 3 or so months since my last update. I had to go back and read about what was going on in my life at that time. haha. Like a month and half or so after I posted about Scott things kind of started to go downhill. I felt a little smothered around him and had a feeling that if a relationship was to be formed he would be the type of person that would need to be around all the time (he kind of was always there anyways, like he would stop by the library every single day to just stare over my shoulder, which made it super hard to concentrate.) We still talk here and there, but it is kinda just small talk.
I then started to hang out with someone who works at the library on campus. We had a little fling for like a month, no emotional feelings at all, it felt good to have someone like that for once... But... I then met someone that there was emotional feelings for, so I ended the things with the other guy, it felt like the right thing to do...We still talked, but he kept on bugging me to hang out, but I felt that hanging out wouldnt be the best thing to do because of how things were when we were "together." So about the other guy, he is 19 and I met him through my roommate. I thought he wasn't like any other guy I have had a thing with. He was more mature than the ones older than him. We hung out and talked all the time. We both confessed to each other that we liked each other. I remember our first kiss and it was so innocent and sweet. He had me pinned down on my bed and he was inches from me and asked what I wanted, so i smiled and then I asked him what he wanted and he said "you know what I want" and then moved closer and kissed me. Things were great until the last week of school, which was obviously finals week. He saw his ex and then realized that he didn't want a relationship. I can understand that, and starting a relationship when I had 4 days left in Buffalo probably wouldn't have been the smartest things to do. But it's the way he went around that which hurt me the most. He pushed me aside. I asked him to hang out with me one of the days I had off during finals week and he said that he had to take his grandmother somewhere... Umm and I went to lunch around 1 with my roommate and 2 other friends and he was there in the union, I didn't see him and neither did my roommate, but he saw us but texted my ROOMMATE and not me. He knew I was upset about how things were going with us and he didn't even come over and say hi and to see if I was doing better than when we were talking about earlier... I had a break down in the union... I texed him a little while later and he said we needed to talk and that is finally when he told me he didnt want a relationship... THROUGH TEXT... I asked him if we could talk in person, but he didn't say anything minus that he had to get this out in the open. A day later or maybe that night he said he would do ANYTHING to make me happy, so basically our friendship would stay the same (which was a very touchy feely relationshionship). Of course that was the way it was the last day we hung out before I came home... Later that day he said he wished that we didn't do anything minus hang out and help us move (meaning Ashley and Missy... he only helped me with a couple things) and just gave me a hug at the end...
As for now, we're still talking here and there... I don't know, I don't feel that close to him anymore... It seems like I'm always the one starting the conversation (even though we are having problems with our texting, a lot of the time he isn't recieving mine or I'm not recieving his). I called him once, but he happened to be at work... The other day I told him it would be nice if he returned my call, but he didn't know that it is the respectful thing to do when someone calls you and you miss it... I'm sick of people either not returning my calls when I call them or just texting me to see what's up... If I called you on the phone I obviously want to talk to you about something ON THE PHONE not through text message. It's frustrating. I can write a whole post on just that alone. My generation conversation skills are going downhall, but just think of the younger generation, the elementary school or early middle school kids that already have a cell phone... I had a tracfone at the END of high school and finally switched the Verizon a COUPLE WEEKS before I left for Freshman year of college.
Anyways the semester went well, ended up with a 3.48 GPA (2 tenths away from dean's list. ugh.) I passed the 2nd teacher's certification test and took all 5 seminars... 1 more test left and 2 more semesters and then I graduate from Buff State! Woo! I gotta start looking at Grad Schools... Hmm, haven't done anything overly exciting this summer, been working the past couple weeks. Hopefully seeing Daughtry this coming weekend at the BCA, if not I will probably end up going to Jazz fest to see Smash Mouth. I'm seeing Steel Train in Rochester and OAR in Buffalo in July! I'm quite pumped, but lets not rush it... I'm loving the summer! But I'm anxious for school to start, I just want to be done! lol
I hope things are well for everyone... And lets hang out (get ahold of me on here or facebook.) If you don't have my cell number and want it, let me know! :)
Oh and GO USA!! World Cup 2010!!
